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The rush of emotions
coming at me like a hungry lion.
I can’t breathe.
That is my only thought.
I can’t breathe and run.
Run so far and so fast.
But looking at me its not going to be far.
so I stay put.
Panicking and struggling to breathe.
I can’t breathe because I miss you everyday.
I think I’m past it but then something reminds me of you and then I am back with the lion.
That is what grief does.
It comes at you heavy and fast.
Hits you like a thousand baseballs.
and it never truly goes away.
You just learn to cope with it.
Please check out my poem “Daily Life” that has been published on Wolff Poetry Literary Journal. This poem has been selected to be featured for the whole month of December.
Thank you to everyone who believed in me and for all of you who are reading along!
Feeling the pressure to succeed
And wanting to amount to something positive
instead of having to be taken care of like a child.
I want to grow but I fear falling
Falling hard and fast and not being able to climb out in time
Because the truth is
I’m not sure if I want to survive.
I have always had this gut feeling of dying young.
I think of the future but it has always been hypothetical
Like I won’t live to see it.
and that scares me more than I am willing to admit.
When the end of the world comes along
I want you to be there to hold my hand
It’s all okay